Tuesday, October 7, 2008
a "everything-something-nothing" thing.
i guess i finally have the patience to bother to write something on the blog after all now. prolly cuz promos are already over, so i'm much more slack now. (:
well....
i used to think that it was my everything. it is still everything, although i know that in the future there will be always be something that will make my everything change into a something too. then would my everything be fully complete. however, what if i am not given a chance to acquire something, and is just left with the everything? and obviously, this everything is actually nothing. so won't i just be left with nothing and a bitter taste in my mouth? sad huh? in actual fact, even up till now, i still hope that nothing will become everything so as to prove to myself that i have not lived for nothing. also, usually to acquire everything you are to do nothing. however at this stage, i must do everything to acquire something or else i will really be left with nothing. but if it's nothing to me, i should just leave it as nothing shouldn't i? but somehow, i cant leave it as it is. the feeling of everything turning into nothing had left me with much pain and suffering. sometimes i feel that throwing away everything to acquire nothing is a good thing after all as it allows me to obtain everything in the end. but, why is such a thing so hard? well, i do know deep down in my heart that i actually own everything that i need and want, however i cant help feeling that this everything is just something because they arent entirely my things. i know it is a terrible thing to think of but we just cant help feeling so sometimes, dont we?
no matter what, i just hope that someday, nothing will become something, and something will become eveything. till that day, i will continue to grapple between doing something or doing nothing. and i actually had quite a bit of something else to say but i had just forgotten everything. sheesh. what thing is this thing anyway, you might be thinking? well, i just got to say that it's a secret thing just between me and me.
10:29 PM