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hmm...

2009-02-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

hahaha im thinkingggg about whether i should revive this poor blog! xP hehe anws
FRIDAY IS STUDY DAY right, bestie? :D haha yayy cant wait till friday!

so long then! :D

"I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today"

bring me a thousand miles away please

2008-11-06T18:49:00.001+08:00

wrap it
trap it
put it in a box
that'll be the end of it
(:

my heart sure hurts.
but at least its healing.....

a "everything-something-nothing" thing.

2008-10-07T22:29:00.004+08:00

i guess i finally have the patience to bother to write something on the blog after all now. prolly cuz promos are already over, so i'm much more slack now. (:

well....
i used to think that it was my everything. it is still everything, although i know that in the future there will be always be something that will make my everything change into a something too. then would my everything be fully complete. however, what if i am not given a chance to acquire something, and is just left with the everything? and obviously, this everything is actually nothing. so won't i just be left with nothing and a bitter taste in my mouth? sad huh? in actual fact, even up till now, i still hope that nothing will become everything so as to prove to myself that i have not lived for nothing. also, usually to acquire everything you are to do nothing. however at this stage, i must do everything to acquire something or else i will really be left with nothing. but if it's nothing to me, i should just leave it as nothing shouldn't i? but somehow, i cant leave it as it is. the feeling of everything turning into nothing had left me with much pain and suffering. sometimes i feel that throwing away everything to acquire nothing is a good thing after all as it allows me to obtain everything in the end. but, why is such a thing so hard? well, i do know deep down in my heart that i actually own everything that i need and want, however i cant help feeling that this everything is just something because they arent entirely my things. i know it is a terrible thing to think of but we just cant help feeling so sometimes, dont we?

no matter what, i just hope that someday, nothing will become something, and something will become eveything. till that day, i will continue to grapple between doing something or doing nothing. and i actually had quite a bit of something else to say but i had just forgotten everything. sheesh. what thing is this thing anyway, you might be thinking? well, i just got to say that it's a secret thing just between me and me.

3 days ago, 23rd july(:

2008-07-26T10:44:00.000+08:00

Okay! I haven’t updated in like 10000 yrs! Haha this post shall be about yesterdayyy:D when I turned 17! Haha. At 12! Ankeeta and asri came in the room, while I was watching couple or trouble.. and they were like SUPRISSEEEE with this huge huge candle the kind you see in castles!! I was like. Omg! Haha I didn’t expect it la. They got me a tiramisu cake! Yumm my fave! Haha:D thenn we camwhoredd abit! Haha then ankeeta went to watch dream girls.. asri and I watched our couple or trouble (: haha. Then then I went to sleep around 2am I think. Forgot ady xD haha

At 6.35 I received a call from bestie!(: Which woke me up.. haha if he didn’t call I would have been late for sch I think xD haha. Thanks for coming and passing me all the presents (: you made my day! Haha.. then left to sch with michelle..

It was raining so we didn’t have morning assembly so we went straight to the audi for phy lecture.. then I was like wondering where’s peiling and huidan! Haha then they came in looking abit suspicious.. then they were like happy birthday!:D with a pau in hand.. with 2 toothpicks on it as candles! Haha. Superrr cutee:D then they were like ‘we’re on a budget right now’(:

Had break after that. Sat at the OHANA(: I read all the bday cards:D shared nachos with huidan and ate the pau! Yumm haha then we had econs lecture.. boringness with the taitai teacher lecturing. Urgh. Haha then we walked out of the audi.. then jianyu came and passed me a bear!:D haha its from jianyu, yukang, jacky, youchen and shaojun(: haha thanks so much guys!:D then when we reached the room for gp.. I was like ehh how come suddenly got a water bottle in my bag pocket! Haha its from peiling and huidan! Thanks for buying the nike water bottle I wanted! Yes the one with flowers!:D haha yayy.

Had econs after that! Had a timed prac.. then Ms cai and the class sang a bday song for me:D haha then we had civics.. then aft that the whole class stayed back! Haha tsktsk I knew they had a cake:P haha so obvious! Haha the clique shared to buy a lemon cheese cake from breadtalk for me!:D haha cos peiling rmbed that that time when we were at amk hub I was telling her how I miss the lemon cheese cake when I was in uk! Haha:D yayyy sang another time and ate the cake:D after that went to nyp with peiling and the guys.. then I went back (:

Met ger at ard 5+ then went to kino to buy new moon! Haha Edward cullen!:D then we went to eat dinner at fareast! I had some claypot yimien thingy. Then we shopped ard and bought ourselves an anklet! Haha if it falls off our wish wld come true:D

Went back at ard 9+ (: haha thanks so much jo for the birthday dedication for me on the radio! Haha you’re the best:D lol that night ankeeta tried to teach asri and I some bollywood dance! Super funny can xD haha.. then shared the cake that bestie gave(: oh ohh thanks cindyy for the miniature of the electric guitar! Haha I loveee it:D

And and, thanks for all the birthday smses!:D esp from stace and mel! Who’re not in Singapore:D haha you guys rock:D and thanks for all the birthday greetings and gifts! I had a fantastic dayyyy(: thanks to all of you guys!:D

inspiration quote of the day! (:

2008-07-17T18:01:00.001+08:00

"There is 2 paths you can take. Either you can get bitter about your disability and head down the depressing street called ‘why me’ street, or instead you can start climbing big beautiful mountains of opportunity. Yes these mountains may be steeper if you are disabled, but the view from the top is even better! And despite being blind, even I can see it!"

-Amar Latif

busy schedule. limited time.

2008-07-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

i promise i promise. i promise i will finish this post in 15 mins time.

ok... so yeah. been uber ultra freaking busy lately. never-ending homework, never-ending commitments, never-ending worries. going to die young at this rate, either naturally or unnaturally. haha.

been watching disney movies recently. because i've realised that although i grew up with disney and roughly know the plots of the various movies, i have never watched a single one of them before! D: therefore, so far i've watched beauty and the beast, pocahontas and little mermaid. much more to go like notre dame and the various sequels. lol.

a physics spa day

2008-07-15T15:03:00.002+08:00

firstly.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN IVIEN VIEN IEN EN N! xD haha

my spa was kinda screweddd haha cos i forgot to fix in the rheostat.. what a silly mistake rite-.- haha but i guess the teacher was nice.. didnt minus any marks :D haha cos i was staring at the marksheet.. he didnt write anythingg abt me xD haha. poor liumei! her multimeter was like faultyy:( but luckily mrari gave her more time(:

okayy aft sch subway-ed with hd, pl, lm and cy:D haha i tried the italian bmt for the first time tday w hd(: haha its like reallyyy salty! i decided not to keep eating the subway melt haha i shall try smth new everytime :D

yay ankeeta finished twilight! haha im gna start reading it soon:D

a guilty day? haha

2008-07-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

haha i didnt go to sch todayyy. and i didnt actual pon okayy. i was feeling kinda sick (mentally?) haha xD but oh wells. i actl woke up for sch.. then when i was like getting ready, ankeeta was like i wanna pon sch todayy lets pon sch. then i was like.. okayy! hahah then when we told asri she was uber uber shocked xD hehe.

we watched spirited away in the morn.. then went to tp to get our mcs :D haha then we had lunch at mos burger! ate the rice burger:D yumm! haha we did some grocery shopping and then we went back(: lol almost bumped into some teachers though! haha it was kinda scaryy but fun! i decided i will only do this once in every 2 months! haha cos, the mc is very ex-.- and etc etc etc xD haha!

hello kind souls!

2008-07-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

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unas seminar was an absolutely knock-out

2008-07-12T19:50:00.002+08:00

ahhh. my head hurts. from sleeping too much. haha. cuz i went for this UNAS seminar today, and oh my, i was sooo bored that i practically slept my whole way through the whole 10-hour-long seminar. lol. i think maybe i DID slept my way through for 10 hours. at first, the sleeping was shiok, but after that, i just slept cuz i was bored to death and didnt feel like mugging then. i heck cared the speakers and slept blatantly. hehehe. :P oh wells, trying to console myself that i didnt waste my whole day by saying that i can add one more thing to my council profile. council profile council profile council profile. >.<

and then i decided to walk to orchard cuz i wanted to go kino. my book hasnt arrived yet! D: and 'the life and times of the wicked witch' is sold out too! D: wasted trip. shucks.

oh wells, off to read some manga and then start on my bio concept map. blah.

walking down memory lane of 080708(:

2008-07-11T14:57:00.002+08:00

zy, me, trusted partner:D

mirror loves:D haha

more.. xD

reflections(:

i love da backgrd!

guess where xP haha

can you spot the elephant? (x

credits to me:D haha so creative rite!(x

credits to zy(:

what a woman should know -mia deangelo(:

2008-07-11T14:10:00.000+08:00

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....

a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

a feeling of control over her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .

whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming Inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

What she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...

my heroic act!

2008-07-09T23:17:00.001+08:00

hahaha i donated one bag of blood todayy!
im sure it's being used now to save somebody's life!

(:
yay!

a cammmwhoringgggg dayyy! xp

2008-07-08T20:16:00.002+08:00

hahah yayyy! today was a happyy day (cos i met up w zy and trusted partner:D) yet a sad sad day (cos i got back my phy paper) lol anws! i shall only blog abt the happy happy happiness of the dayy!:D

met up w zy at ard 2.30 at fareast! haha then we bought bubble tea and went to eat the ramen and the dumplings thingy at the 5th storeyy! yum!:D haha then stace came n met us! haha i miss that girl! :D we walked ard and we decided that all we wanted to do was to sit down, take loadsss of pics and talk! so zy decided that we shld just walk on and on and stop when thrs a nice place to sit:D haha SO, guess where our first stop was! haha HYATT! xD lol. so funnyy la we took tonness of pics like everywhere! haha i shall upload the pics some other time!(: then. our next stop MARRIOTT! xD haha we went up to the 3rd storey i think.. where we all had our prom last yr(: haha sweet sweet memories! then we sat down at the sofa right outside that very ballroom and had our heart to heart talks:D haha love that! so much to gossip and so much to share with one another! haha i reallyyy miss last yr:(

anws stace is gonna go back to melbourne on saturday! ohwells the next time i'm gonna see her will be in sept or dec! haha i cant wait! :D

almost suffocated to death

2008-07-07T20:25:00.002+08:00

had tdc jts today. although SUPER little juniors turned up, the funniness of the seniors well made up for it. phew (: i was a little fed up at the whole comm though. obviously some could make it for the jts, but just didnt want to come for it. whatever.

and then the seniors started to create this scandal for me. RIDICULOUS MAN. cant we just be friends? URGH. ok, i am not angry at the snrs at all. just that i am a bit sick of this scandal thing. i just want to make friends with different ppl, is there something wrong with that? maybe i've been in a girls' sch for too long, so i dont know when to curb my actions so that it doesnt seem so. what the heck. haizzz. just friends just friends. and i am sooo not interested in bgr. freaking suffocating you know. looking at my friends and i know. suffocating is all i can say. so just stop it.

relax

2008-07-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

fret not, k? (:

you will get over such stuff soon. very soon. [:

but life goes on..

2008-07-06T15:15:00.000+08:00

if im falling then why am i crying?

stop it. i am disgusted.

2008-07-06T11:28:00.003+08:00

ndp08 NE1 yesterday. it was gooood. (: i meant the performance, not my job. i had to stand from noon all the way to 10pm.hows that good? haha. oh wells. at least they gave us yummilicious kfc to eat. :D all thanks to the malays. haha! and i saw a lunar eclipse during the parade! and lots of nice fireworks! upfront! it has been ages since i last saw fireworks so close up front before (: and also since i cant be bothered to watch the ndp parade for the past few years, sooo..... haha. my brother is pestering me for the uniform they gave each of the bay ambassadors. lol. crazy. i need it lah! as a souvenir also. haha, cuz i dont think i will be joining again. so boring. sigh.

supposed to go with clarine to daniel's church today. haha, but i was too bushed and busy so i called it off. sorry daniel! although i dont think he will see this, lol. oh wells, tdc jts tmr. wonder how it will turn out. this is disastrous.

disgusted.

omg!@#$%^&*(

2008-07-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

you big fat copycat dont copy the songs i play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean if you wanna play then play it somewhere far far away!!! stop copying my songs you @#$%%RDSIDYUSN

:D
okay. i feel destressed now.

:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@:@

2008-07-04T18:04:00.003+08:00

IM SO PISSED SO PISSED SO PISSEEDDDDD :@ wth la. i was sleeping! and SOMEBODY was watching camp rock on youtube soooooooo loud that it woke up me. and after that when i left the room and came back. they lowered down the volume. but it was still freakin loud. then i left again. then i came back. then lowered it down again.

puhlease la! im not so inconsiderate to watch sm show soo loudly when somebody is sleeping! LOL.

i've never hated someone so much in my life before, yet.

2008-07-03T20:40:00.003+08:00

i hate you, you bitch. seriously. all you know is to yak your stupid big mouth away and then act nice and bubbly to everyone around you. why dont they see your true face? that scheming face of yours. your words have thorns which are just meant to prick me and me only. i was wrong about you. may you rot in hell. and i wont pledge my soul to anybody to get you into hell. because you are not worth it. sooo not worth it. i want to stuff a stopper into your stupid mouth. it is as stupid as your brain. all the pretense. tsk.

woah. i dont believe i hate her THIS MUCH.

11:11

2008-07-02T23:11:00.004+08:00

hahah my clock now says 11:11! yayy means somebody's thinking of me!:D haha anwss trg today was like uber tough! cos we had combined trg w the schteam ppl!:D it was productive i think, but uber superbly tiring.. esp the running, hopping, jumping up the stairs to the 4th floor EIGHT times part xD lol

anws! siewwei is coming on singapore on the 27th!:DDD yayy i cant wait to see my dahling! :D haha then we'll go eat the delicious max brenner chocolate bar's fondue as promised xD haha yayy cant wait!

oh ohh and i discovered a new function of my phone! hahaha cos pl was sending me all those animated cartoons cos we were wondering how wld i turn out like in my phone.. cos her phone is like sony and mine is like lg so it appeared as a diff animation! haha but still!xD uber cute! hahaha what an inspiring day!:D

i want to get married to a rich man,
and live happily ever after.

window

2008-07-02T21:15:00.002+08:00

finally, our very first (almost) full proposal. :D all thanks to my coolesttttttttt ai/c, yannqi. haha. sometimes i think we should have a reversal of roles. i feel so useless. he knows how to use the computer like abc! ohmygosh lah! XD i feel useless. ):

hmmm. i used to think that i take very long to make friends. a minimum of two years for me to fully open up to my 'friends'. however, i realised that this is actually just a self-imposed psychological barrier which i had set for myself. i am easy with these people. i dont feel restrained. but i used to feel the same way too with THEM&HER, but look what happened. well, probably it had been my fault on my own part.the feeling came back slightly today. i am happy it did. but it is just not quite right there yet. no acting no pretense. you see me, and accept me if you dont mind it.

and it's friendship. not gay or lesbian love if that's what you're thinking for goodness sake.

apologies

2008-07-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

it's officially over. phew.

sorry.

lost

2008-07-02T18:19:00.000+08:00

lost faith.

spain spain spain spain is loveee

2008-06-30T23:35:00.002+08:00

yayyy SPAIN WON! hahaha:D tsktsk that euro finals wasted my precious sleeping time til i only got 1 hr of sleep.. and sch ended at like 6.15 tday la! craziness! hahah i ALMOST died-.- really. haha pl left sch after the 3rd lesson! i hope you're feeling better now!(: during lunch hd and i went to eat suki sushi! haha cheapness and its uber nice! haha it shall be my new fave lunch spot!:D okay then aft PE.. went to meet my mum!:DDD then had dinner at peach garden at novena. yumm!

haha and now.. im dying.. cos of my endless gp hw:(

ikea & AHEM

2008-06-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

phew. just came back from my std meeting at ikea not long ago. tired. superrr tired. well, got settled on the souvenirs more or less, and thrashed some other stuff out too. (: all's working fine, but i am starting to feel the stress from tdc already. although i still pretty much enjoy doing tdc stuff. ^^ thus, it is actually quite saddening that we having exactly 2 months left ONLY till the end of it. ): after which, no more ad-hocs. ad-hocs were the reason as to why i joined council. (: oh wells. ): there has to be an end to the good stuff, doesnt it? (:

also, as a result of stupid maths ct and fabtastic std, i skipped my class outing. haha. heck care lah. like i am close to them anymore. feel so alienated. i dont care if anybody reads this. this is really how i feel man.

oh oh! and we finally ventured into guardian to buy the AHEM! haha! yq was super funny! hahaha! XD

ate swedish meatballs too. yummm. P: saw EX-aqua house cap w a few of the j1s at alexandra too. so wasnt expecting to see any nj people at this end of the world. i hate queensway. takes me forever to reach home. =/

tired, therefore writing in disjointed segments. haha. sorry. :P

torn

2008-06-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

i think i'm falling(:

SICK! :D (in love? no way.)

(: because i am going to have my stupid maths CT retest tmr
BUT,
): because i have std meeting tmr which is quite impt.
sighhh.
torn torn torn. torn in between. D:

still

2008-06-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God(:

pics from yesterday!(:

2008-06-29T11:23:00.003+08:00

see told you the backdrop was beautiful! haha

the amazing alumni choir(:

their beautiful costumes:D

liang, me and reshma taking pics w da props!xD

zy and liesel darlings:D

happy bday darling!

7 of us!

LOVE(:

the sc choir concert 2008!

2008-06-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

today has been a long long day! haha seriouslyyy:D left ard 2! then met reshma and liang at sc! then we bought tickets to watch the SCGS CHOIR CONCERT!:D haha yay! super nice can!:D lol i really miss the choir:( oh. haha and during the last song.. "home", we were all crying la.. haha so many memories xD hehe ohh ohhhh the backdrop of SC AIRLINES is like beautiful! esp when the lightings were like yellowish.. it really looked like a sunset! haha

it ended ard 4.30.. then we went to the ava room to see our juniors who were wonderful on stage! haha well done! you guys did a fabulous job!:D hehe then talked to the teachers.. lol.. i really miss sc!:( urgh. haha then we left for orchard at ard 5.. thr was this contest thingy gg on.. have to fill in some form thingyy while peeping into this box with loads of key holes with these two models lying inside-.- lol haha i hope i win! get a designer bag or dress xD hehe.

then we walked to taka! lol FINALLY got to eat my cream puff! i have been craving for it for so long:D haha shopped ard! lol was supposed to meet zy at 6 but then somebodyyy thot i was sleeping and didnt come! arghhh thank goodness for liang:D she waited w me till zy came.. which was like almost 7! lol haha okayy bought liesel's fave mango cakee! and we headed down to fish n co beside park mall:D lol so much to catch up with zy on the way:D haha.

when we reached.. only vivien and oiyi were thr!:D the rest were late tsk tsk. haha then aft that jean, tas came! and liesel got a surprise! haha yayy:D so fun talking and catching up! we haven met since stace's farewell dinner:( hmm we should really meet up more often! i really miss you guyss like damn alot! haha then zy and i camwhored! as usual xD ohmyy tonite was uber funny la! hahaha zy and i kept saying the same things at the same time! lol what do ppl say abt bestfriends! haha can read each other's mind xD hehehe.

okay im gonna sleep! nights:D hehe

thoughts

2008-06-28T23:13:00.001+08:00

sweet freedom. i am enjoying it.

1st council outing/bbq

2008-06-28T23:06:00.003+08:00

wheeeee. just came back from our very first 41st council outing. haha. actually it was just a bbq. cuz i went home before that instead of going out to lunch w the rest. i had to bathe! i stank! haha. oh wells. but it was really really quite fun on the overal! ^^ and nick pitera is GOOOOOD. gosh lah. gonna hear more of his songs later. hahaha. unbelievable.

and ohmy, i have to find a location for tdc steamboat! <3
and a dubious 'lol' to add in too. hehe.

a happy happy day!

2008-06-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

haha todays a happy dayy:D lol. went to sch for pw in the morn. 100% of boringness.. lol. haha then the fun started aft tht! headed to yishun w pl, hd, jy and tw. ate yoshi for lunch! haha yumm i haven eaten it since like soo long ago! haha then we took the shuttle bus to occ:D

bowled for like 1 hr plus.. 1st round.. i was like third.. then the second round i was like at first tied with tw.. then with jy.. then i became last-.- lol dunno why my ball kept gg into the gutter! haha oh wells it was fun! so funny everytime when tw and i are bowling tgh my ball just doesnt go rite-.- haha annoyingness. then aft that, we went downstairs to play pool! ohh and yw joined us by then! hahah im getting better! yayy:D (eventhough i still sucked at it)

was supposed go back to sc tday cos zy called and said she's gg back. haha but when im like on the way she said we cldnt collect our testimonials cos the person in charge of it went home ady:( haiz. haha oh wells gna collect it some other time then!:D

i just did some art thingyyy im so tired now:( haha but im gna watch murder by numbers later with cindy!:D haha yayy!

a classic.

2008-06-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

this song 'so close' is a classic. i never get tired of hearing it over and over again. good choice, erm, 'me'! :D haha! enchanted rocks. (:

YO. hahaha. hmmm, i dont know, just felt like laughing, be it in reality or virtually. haha. prolly because CTs are overrrrrrrr. oh man, actually not really. have retest on mon. URGH. IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU. YOU = maths. (x oh wells, there's no escaping this time. freak, gp va too. ):< oh wellsssss. chem tut, bio tuts, bio mcqs, bio va, bio concept map. OH WELLS. right? urgh

ok, this was meant to be a happy post. at least a light-hearted one. haha
hmmm... ok, so i went to sc today to collect my certs! ^^ but there was a slight problem, so i have to go back to collect it another day, after they have rectified the problem. i ate my favourite chicken mushroom noodles with LOADS of chilli! yumyummm. P: and the uncle actually remembered me! haha! then we saw our form teacher. (: after which, clarine claire and lynn (sp?) went out to cathay. haha. it is quite amazing what graduation from a sch can do to you. during sc times, i would never have talked nor went out with these people, but now, i just dont care. everybody's like a 'friend' to me. haha. (: yah, so we took neos and then watched zohan. lol, sick show. but quite funny and meaningful actually. haha. plus, adam sandler was good-looking in it okayyyy. :D and the female lead too! ^^ and saw so many jc people lah, especially nj. surprisingly. :P

blah, still looking for my ring. =/

yay! exams are over!

2008-06-26T17:09:00.003+08:00

haha FINALLY. the day is here! xD lol exams are over over over over over! :D haha the physics paper tday was like uber uber hard. urghh hahah i cld do most of it.. but the prob is im not sure whthr its like the rite way. haha. after sch subwayed with pl and hd at j8! haha finallyy i've been craving for it like uber longgg xD yay! haha.

eventhough exams are over i dont feel relieved! thats cos there's like gazzilions of gp hw due tmr!! urghh she's so mean how can she do this to us.. how can she expect to do all the hw when we're having exams! gosh Dx haha im gna slack and try my best to complete ALL the hw by tonite-.- lol

ohh and i better go back to sc soon to collect some booklet thingy-.-

(:

2008-06-25T20:49:00.001+08:00

i think im falling(:

HAHA!

2008-06-25T14:11:00.003+08:00

oh my. tdc/std's present in going to be sooooo nice. (x haha!
and tdc is teachers' day committee lah.

i<3std! :D

It's a small crime, and I've got no excuse.

2008-06-25T12:35:00.009+08:00

maths today was like killer hardd! gosh i just flunked the only subject i had confidence to do well in!:( ahh one more paper! phy tmr!:D then IT'S OVER! yeahh. okay its not. esp when we get back our papers.. its worse than even taking em-.-

hahah im listening to 9crimes by damien rice now.. emoness-.- lol

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
With you.

a real sparkler, a real stunner

2008-06-24T12:33:00.006+08:00

my oh my. CTs have started. freakkkk. so far for ALL my subjects, i only start studying a few hours before the test starts. haha! because i am just so lazy and i prefer sleeping much more. :D and oh my lah. chemistry was DAMN FREAKING HARD, i tell you. 5 pages of section B not touched AT ALL, and even for those pages that i have done, it's like..... wrong wrong wrong all the way. hahaha. somehow i am not depressed at all. lol. i am so immune to tests and exams already. even when the exams are just the next day, i would still go and watch my tv shows. (x this is madness. i had better go back to the normal singaporean student mentality, the normal NJ(secret's out. haha!) mugger mentality. and i just went to ate my favourite tomyum. mmm.... P:

i want to get a sparkler! so bling. haha. but a fake one of course. no money to buy real one. (x and my this compulsion is all due to my new chemistry tutor. too lazy to say why. haha. oh wells.

nice eh? haha. but the diamond is upside down. there's a reason for it. :P (click HERE to find out why) and i cant understand why dont people make simple rings anymore. almost all the rings i see nowadays are so fanciful(=ugly). some stuff are just nicer when it's simpler. (:

ciao~ :D

hostel sweet hostel

2008-06-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

haha yess! im finally back. :D after missing my flight yest. lol got scolded like alot alot-.- urgh. but its so funny how i was chatting with daryl yest night then he was telling me how he transit through kch airport.. and we were both thinking tht we were on the same flight but we didnt see each other cos i missed my flight!-.- THEN we realised that his was the morn shift and mine was afternoon!

okayy this is how i missed my flight:( its supposed to be at 1645.. BUT i somehow saw it as 6.45pm-.- so.. aft having high tea at holiday inn.. i came back.. at that time was like 4.45 then i checked online to see the timings on the flight.. and then i was like shuckkss no 6.45 flights only 4.45.. then i called the airport and i asked what time is the kch-sin flights. and the woman on the phone was like. they're boarding now. and im like. OMG.
so yeah-.-

anwss i got like soo much to unpack! haha nvm i shall be patient yes! so happy to see everyone back here. but i dont know when's asri's coming back! haha shld be by tday i guess cos sch's starting tmr! and thanks to ankeeta for the lovely bangles! :D haha

oh wells, exams are like tmr onwards!:( boo. well to look on the bright side, it'll be over in 5days time! (YAY:D) haha

:(

2008-06-21T00:39:00.001+08:00

there's someone harassing me. D:
omg la im gna die. D:
i feel so scared. D:

what did i do wrong. D:

For a beautiful liar,

2008-06-20T22:38:00.001+08:00

i need a direction.
i need a direction.
i need a freakin direction.

gosh.

aftermath.

2008-06-20T21:21:00.003+08:00

hmmm....

maybe some stuff just can't be rushed.
maybe some stuff just cannot be forced.
maybe some stuff just need time.

my stupidity and recklessness has brought about headaches and sadness. sorry.
i just wasnt used to the shackles it brought upon me. very.
maybe i should join my godsis' ________ club. HAHA! oh my, i am considering it already.

gosh. why the heck am i so emo? this isnt ME! haha! i am a super slacker till i become a optimist and a no-nonsense person! (x
and there's so many ants on the computer table. my brother is going to dieeee. (:<

HAPPY 17TH BiRTHDAY LIZZIEWIZZIEFIZZIE!

2008-06-20T09:09:00.004+08:00

because i cant help you no matter what i say. all in all, it is still up to you.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!!
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU <3

ok. happy stuff over. i am angry. oh yes i am. not just because of THAT but also angry at myself. maybe i shouldnt have said 'try'. i should have said that two-letter word instead. arghhh. i dont know now. but after what has happened, even if that word doesnt come out of my mouth, it will most likely take me uber long to open up. i feel like a mimosa.

i'll see first.

mood: emo

2008-06-20T01:24:00.014+08:00

hmm dont know why im feeling uber uber emo now:( so many things running through my mind about you-know-who and another you-know-who. hahaha. rite, bestie? lol somehow these few days i keep thinking abt the past and i KNOW im not supposed to be doing that. you told me to "move on" and "dont look back". i mean how can i just forget everything so easily. its not that simple okay. and i cant stand how insensitive you are. sometimes i just feel like crying but i know that it wont solve anything so whats the point rite? i dont know what im supposed to do now. am i supposed to just ignore every single crap and focus on my books? cos like exams are only 4days away! the super super long 1month hols are like over somemore. :( i havent finished studying yet. and im super super super confused! argh :(

anwss just now i saw a full moon PLUS a rainbow ring around the full moon! super beautiful! haha and before i forget.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIESEL THE WEASEL! :D

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now ~~when I'm dreaming of your face~~

second(:

2008-06-19T11:57:00.001+08:00

im so angry :( oh wells, like what you said its just part and parcel of life. my mum was like nagging at me to wake up at 6+ this morn to go and help out at my dad's shop. so, i did wake up and stuff and i had to bath and eat my breakfast etc.. so my mum was waiting in the car, THEN, she just drove off without me. like wth. argh. then when i called her i got scolded! so annoying rite. so, i just went back to sleep. :D

okay i think i should start on my econs. :) haha bye!

first.

2008-06-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm. so the first post would be by me huh. haha. me and 'me' have agreed to keep our identities a secret when we type the posts so that nobody would know when it is me or 'me' writing. oh my, even this 'me&me' thing is getting me confused. haha!

ok next. quite a few things have been happening these past few months. there are really heartbreaking ones, nerve-wrecking ones, and not to forget, some happy ones. but all in all, this is part and parcel of life isnt it? but if life composes of more unhappy moments than happy ones, whats the use of living then? to create more happy ones! ^^ otherwise every single person on earth would have went to jump off a building before they even reached 20. hehe. haha, i am quite morbid. :P

but seriously, sometimes i wonder if i have regretted two decisions. i wouldnt say it here because you dont know when PEOPLE come SNOOPING in and then they misinterpret every single thing you said (whether intentionally or not) and then start spreading it around. after all, there's this chinese saying: 覆水难收. ahahaha, i feel intellectual.
(-O-O-) < spec-y person (smart :D)

hopefully with this blog, my english will improve! :D it really sucks.